So this is part one in what I call my attempt at collecting epic video game music. This is mostly for me, tbh, for when I feel like coming back to these posts and listen, but I hope at least some of you have a listen too. :) I had originally planned to split it into two parts - old and new - but decided to just go by generation instead. While I've play - and own - a hell of a lot of systems, my most fondest memories start with NES. I will make my next list sometime in the future.

A few rules I imposed on myself:

1. No universally loved themes - except Zelda. Sorry, Zelda is too epic not to include. >_>
2. One song per game
3. Only games I played AS A KID are allowed on this list. That is why games like Metroid, Castlevania, Contra, Ninja Gaiden, etc. are not here. I've played them, just not when they first came out.

( The list + youtube videos )

O hai, end of the month. I am too lazy for fancy this month. Have one devoid of pictures.

( State of me. )

( State of the Pups )

State of Me: It seems like last month sucked for everyone, because I was on the same boat. There was a two week period I literally couldn't look at my inbox because I felt weirdly queasy. I dropped...a lot, and I really can't apologize enough to everyone who played off me this month. On a positive note, I was gripped by mojo a day or two ago, and it hasn't let up. Playing is fun again, so I'm thinking the unintentional hiatus was good for me. I promise not to suck so hard, you guys.

( State of teh pups. )

Well, since I am not one to quit despite difficulties -

Here I am. Like I worried about earlier on, my power went dead and I only just got back on, meaning I missed a half hour last half hour.

You all are totes welcome to not pay since I technically did not finish, but please do consider doing so regardless. It's a great cause.

Am bummed, but eh, whatever. Thank you all again for putting up with all these. :)

eta: sounds like I might get a reprieve regardless and have my work still count. XD I am going to post up a big thank you list after I go to sleep for a while. For now, I am ready to do to pass out, especially after the frustration of the last little while. I'm not entirely sure if it was a blackout in my area or what but talk about bad timing. :(

Gotta admit, I am way glad this is the last hour. XD

I managed to do this all with one quick cat nap early on. I'm pleased with that, if only because I think I remember sleeping more last time. This was an overall good experience for me in general, and I want to thank everyone who commented. I heart you guys.

I also want to thank the generous donors I have. You guys rock and I managed to collect 80 dollars in total. \o/

Two more posts remain. Then I can sleep. Oh, I can sleep.

Yes, I think the rest of my posts will be a little sparse. I'm too sleepy to think straight. So here, have a video of a cat and a dog.



I'm always constantly amazed how patient some dogs are. Even my golden retriever sort of sits and stares at my cat when she's being a bully, like she knows the cat can't do much to her. It's a testament to what neat pets both animals can be. :)

A lot of tonight was spent watching videos on http://www.thatguywiththeglasses.com . I honestly love this site SO MUCH. If you like any kind of media, there is someone there that does reviews. It's really interesting seeing

FTR, the owner of the site is hilarious enough he won the contest to make an official Rifftrax Presents. Rifftrax = guys who made MST3K. If that isn't a compliment, I don't know what is.

These last few entries are probably going to be posts of no consequence. XD

Like this one, in fact, where I am going to use this spot to LOL about twitter.

Dude, somehow, the spammers managed to get Acai berries up to number one trending topic wise. That is one hell of an accomplishment, I was surprised. And yeah, looking at the list, it's almost all spammers and people wtfing at the spammers.

Twitter is entertaining sometimes. :D

I am surprised I am getting the numbers right on my subjects. Not gonna lie. Things are getting muddled in my head.

Haha, I'm really feeling tired now.

I considered taking a quick nap after this but I know myself. I will sleep and not even my alarm will get me up. So now I struggle to not pass out for a few more hours.

Hopefully next post will be a little more productive. For now, have another link:



Beautiful rendition of Aeris' theme from FF7.

As I hinted in my last post, this next one is going to be the over-medication of kids. And adults, too, but especially kids.

Now, as I said earlier, I am pro-medicine. If it helps you, that's awesome, and that's the case with me, too. I do think, from even my own experiences, that doctors tend to medicate too quickly. Parents with younger kids on this stuff especially need to be careful, since most of these meds have really bad side effects for younger children. That shouldn't STOP a parent if the kid really needs them, but they need to really consider it before going through with it.

In an example for an older person, my own first experience with a doctor was...pretty terrible. The doctor, as I said earlier, gave me Lexapro, and I had the bad vertigo spell that scared me shitless. I called up that night and the dumbass had the nerve to insist I should just keep taking it for a day.

Stupidly, I did it - for one more day. I learned my lesson that day, since it happened again and I realized I need to open my mouth if I have a problem. After insisting he put me on another medication, he finally gave in and switched me to what I still use today.

Note, though, that this was my FIRST visit there. We talked nothing about any strategies we'd try first, he just wrote me the script. A lot of doctors are like that nowadays, and it isn't to our benefit. This just means more vigilance has to be paid in what they're having you do - and not do.

Sounds like a big storm has come in. The rain outside is loud enough to hear over my A/C, and I heard a crack of thunder while I was out in the kitchen making myself chocolate milk.

Hopefully the power won't go out. I will be very annoyed. :| Best put in the LJ voicepost thing I have into my phone if it gets worse. :( Oy.

I'm back to playing Bioshock. This reminds me of the old argument video games make kids violent. I don't buy that, to be honest, nor will I say media in general makes them violent (over sexed up, maybe, and compliant with gender roles, but violent? Nah.) I only say this because I think the kind of violence blamed on kids comes from issues that just are happened to brought out by games and would have been triggered some other way eventually anyway. I always roll my eyes at the Doom thing with the Columbine kids - Doom didn't teach those kids how to shoot those guns or gave them access to guns. Doom didn't give those kids the initial issues they both had (one, I believe, had anger management issues, even). What it does bring up is medication and how it affects kids their age, but that's a whole other post.

When I was a kid, I played video games. My mother monitored when I brought into the house, and made sure I knew the difference between reality and not. If kids are getting their hands on games rated MA when they're 7, that isn't the manufacturer's fault.

I can go on and on on the subject, but I don't think it'll be coherent enough. XD; My tl;dr point is, honestly, that violent games don't make violent kids - kids prone to violent tendencies tend to want to play violent games. Does that mean all kids are that way? Absolutely not - I am sure plenty of kids too young to play come out of it fine. All it takes is one person to get triggered off...

I thought of this story as a good example why there needs to be a whole lot more research and support for all ages.

Warning: this will rip your heart out. :(

For any who don't want to read/watch, this is a heartbreaking story of a little six year old girl who has schizophrenia. At this point, she is too young to put in a mental hospital for teenagers, so essentially the parents have to live in two separate apartments because the daughter could hurt their son. Seeing the strain this does on them, how little care they can find, just honestly destroys me.

It's my hope more stories like this family come out. The more media attention has on things like these, the more things might be able to change.

Haha my computer decided to spaz on me and not let me into LJ for a minute there. I am choosing to believe it did that to freak me out enough to get me wide awake again.

I choose to believe that or else I might have to figure out the logistics of strangling a website. >_>

What, me, getting cranky? Never.

Anyway, since this is close to the wire, I'll keep this entry short. Still alive!

Things heard at 3 am: weird noises upstairs. Animal possibly? I should probably mention that to my folks tomorrow. Luckily, unless Spiderman is robbing us, I doubt it's anyone up there. XD

So I just took my meds, and I remembered something I always found funny: my pill sorter thing. I have a deathly fear of taking meds twice, since I don't usually take it at the same morning/nighttime. I bought one of those pill sorter things that has a little container for each day.

The funny thing?

My grandma uses those too.

Yes, me and my 80+ year old grandma have something to bond over. XD

One of the things I know I have always done is internalize my feelings. It's probably why I'm as bad as I was today, because things built up so much eventually that the dam burst.

With the stats I put up, I'm starting to see I'm not the only one. Having a disorder is embarrassing. It's hard to explain to people you freak out at absolutely nothing sometimes, in my case with my GAD. It's hard to explain why telling yourself to cheer up will do nothing but remind you what a failure you are. It's a constant ache only people who have a disorder can really describe.

Which is why one of the first things I was told to do is let more people in. It took a long time for me to do that, but I've found the people true to you will stay at your side and understand and be patient. It's a fear to get over, but trust me as someone who has a whole lot of walls - it makes things better.

It's nice to know you're not alone.

I was all set to start looking into mental health topics and Pandora gave me this song:



So essentially I am sitting here teary eyed now, since it's played during one of the saddest moments in Scrubs. I am lame, I know.

Just enjoy the song. I love everything Josh Radin does.

If I'm lagging in replies back, it's because I was hit by my first real tired spell, despite swearing I'd get to them all. I'll reply when I'm more coherent. XD

I took an advil to head off my oncoming headache, and I have juice - I should be good to go. :)

More random:

I have a nervous twitch when I get nervous. I move my shoulders, which looks silly, but it's seriously a habit now. I guess I need to move around to try to calm myself down? IDK.

Once I refuel, I'll ponder bigger posts. For now, as always, please feel free to ask me anything! From my experiences to my likes/dislikes, to...well, anything. :)

The one thing I noticed while browsing through the internet all these years is people don't give a shit about triggers. It might just have been my fandoms, but damn, some people treated a lot of bad things like they were hot and everyone should read them without warnings.

That is not cool. At all.

Ones that involve violence especially. PTSD is a terrible thing, and even if I don't have it or have ever gone through such a terrible experience, even I've felt uncomfortable realizing I wasn't warned about the stuff. I don't even usually find people who pretend to be pro-hurting people, which I see a lot of on the couple of communities that are prone to wank.

I guess my message is: be kind, some people are sensitive to those sorts of things. :\

Another half hour, another post.

I can't believe it's 1 am already. I keep trying not to look at the clock but it's sort of hard not to.

Still gaming right now. I got...a lot done in Bioshock today. And this is the longest gaming session I have ever have, haha!

I've got music playing now, as well. Does anyone know of a good free streaming channel? My ipod is currently missing its cord...thingy.

Oh, and on topic: I found an interesting statistic that the elderly are actually the ones with the highest rate of suicide. I read that and felt terribly sad, mostly because I understand it. I had to visit a home for the elderly when my grandma was sick, and it was the most depressing place ever. I don't doubt if they hadn't gotten her out, she would be ten times worse than she is now. :(